Writers Muse
Too Quiet
I’ve been too quite for the past few months. Actually to be completely honest I have been 100% away from my internet life. Not a bad thing mind you. But I have missed updating my websites and that’s why I decided to come back. Slowly but surely of course. I figure I would use this site much more often from now on especially since I can now update from my phone. I think this is the perfect moment to say, HAPPY HOLIDAYS! Now with that out of the way, I can babble on some more. Well… I don’t have much more to say. Just look around past visitors, the shit-ton of content I will be adding will be worth giving a once over.
wanna meet up?
A couple of months ago I gave into friends (peer-pressure sucks) and decided to sign up for a dating website. It has become a really popluar trend these days and I have to admit I have no luck meeting worth while guys. However after seeing the prices on some of these websites (Match.COM over $200 year, I think not my friend) I was feeling a bit insecure. But thanks to a friend, she introduced me to a little website called Plenty Of Fish. I’m not going to lie and say it’s just like Match or eHarmony but the price is right (free). Besides at that point I wasn’t even sure if online dating was for me. I’m babbling here and am losing what I wanted to talk about…
Online dating is the hardest form of dating I have ever come across by a long shot. When you message someone and they look at your picture and if they don’t message you back…well…you can guess what they must think of you. Surely after a couple of no reply messages a person confidence must straight to go down. That’s not even the worst of it yet. Let’s say you get lucky and you either get the reply or better someone you find attractive writes to you f irst, what happens next? Sure you got someone’s interest based on a picture, but here comes to play personality. You may start off with the basics (fav. music, interests, education, work status) but after two or three days of messaging…than what? There is only so much you can write without giving all of yourself away. Anyway after some messaging comes the decision of getting the number or meeting up. For some people they exchanges the digits and talk on the phone for awhile (maybe months) before meeting up. For others (like me) you setup a date.
Some may call it ‘rushing’ if only after a couple of messages I am willing to meet up for a date, but trust me when I say there is a certain logic to this. The way I see it is that messaging can only provide a certain level of ’sparks’ and all those sparks can burst in a second when you meet a person. So what’s the point of messaging someone for months if after the first date you’ll never see them again. Waste of time much?
I texted a guy named Nelson for about two days. Good conversation and we sent each other a couple of pictures and then decided to meet up for the classic movie date. The entire time we spent together was in my opinion good (perhaps even great). We talked. We laughed. And he kept doing that eyes to lips thing, guys usually do when they want to kiss you, the entire time. At the end of the night he said the classic line ‘I really want to get together with you again. Sometime this weekend.’ and then he pulled me into a hug which caused us to lock gazes and then lock lips. Seems like a good date, eh? I thought so too. Until he never called or texted back. Case and point, I didn’t waste my time or at least too much of my time.
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Season 3 – Episode 1
2009 is here and with that brings a new season of Americans Best Dance Crew. Excited? I know I am. Despite its many flaws, this is the only MTV show I find myself capable of watching and not be e. The season premire happened last night and let me just say it did not disappoint (or at least not yet). For the premire we had to endure guest judge (stand in for JC who won’t be in until next episode) Rynan ‘Rainen’ Paguio from season 1 winners Jabbawockeez Crew. This was definitely a big ‘nay’, Rainen was not as annoying as Mario but was pretty damn close. Thankfully we don’t have to sit through his judging for longer than this first episode.mbarrassed to say I enjoy it
Anyway here is a breakdown of the crews and a star rating for their performances:
Quest **** - Beat Freaks **** - Dynamic Edition *** - Ringmasters **
Strikers Allstars *** - Fly Chicks *** - Team Millenia ** - BoxxCutterz **
GOP Dance *** (crew elimated)
The crew that was elimated in this first episode was the Puerto Rican crew GOP Dance. As you can see above I gave them three stars as opposed to a number of crews I only gave two. No I am not being biased because their Puerto Rican (though it does seem fair to do so after Lil’ Mama’s brawling over Brooklyns’ Ringmasters). GOP Dance was not great but was better than other crews, namely Team Millenia. Anyone who watched season two might remember Team Millenia from the live auditions, which they obviously did not make. But miracles do happen and now Team Millenia is on and has survived the first episode. Note the sacarasm. Did they improve from season two? o.O <= that was my face last night after their performance. Apparently improvement means turning into rockers. Their performance was a joke (and not even a funny joke at that). But the bigger joke of the night was Ringmasters, but heaven forbid Lil’ Mama shall hear me saying such a thing. Where was the dancing in their routine? I’m not going to deny that what they do is impressive, but I didn’t see enough (or any in my opinion) dancing.
I’m not going to get into details about the rest of the performances (the star ratings speak for themselves). But I am going to do some predications like I always do. The top three Quest, Beat Freaks, and Ringmasters (as much as I hate the thought of that). The bottom two crews are going to be Team Millenia and BoxxCutterz – the crew going home would be BoxxCutterz.
We’ll just have to wait till next week to see how right I am. Until then 1.
so-called friends
I am so beyond what can be considered pissed off right now. Jackie a.k.a. my so called friend decides to text me and tell me that she can’t make it in Halloween. This is so beyond…stupid! First off we have had this tradition of having a mega movie marathon all night, with a junk-food frenzy, since sophomore year in highschool. That’s about 7-8 years and counting. We had everything set-up for this year. I went out and brought the junk-food and a costume this weekend. Now – out of fucking no where – she comes up with some lame excuse not to go. Saying she has a costume party to go with her mother that night.
Right.
Partly I think her excuse is bullshit due to the fact that I refused to go to her Halloween party she had this weekend. At first I said I would go but then I decided not to and made other plans (which got cancelled last minute anyway). Jackie knew from the beginning that I did not want to go to her party but I said I would try if I was up to it. But I didn’t – honest to god – want to go. Nothing against her, but I hate the people she invited. I really do and she knows this. My health can not afford for me to be getting upset so I try to avoid situations in which I am going to feel uncomfortable. Understandable, eh?
But this is so fucked up. I really am in awe about her cancelling last minute like this. Previous years she hasn’t been able to sleepover and I understand that because she usual has to work early the next day. Still we would have out get together until midnight or something. It was at least an effort.
I gave up a couple of dates and invites to Halloween parties because I knew we were having our Halloween tradition. Some friend, eh? PPPPFFFFFTTTT!!!! This is the last year of this Halloween tradition. I don’t care if she calls back trying to work something out as of right now I am open to any plans people invite me to.
Pursuit
Description: [In Progress. Rated T. Romance/Supernatural] (Excerpt: “Are you scared of me?” As if the answer weren’t obvious, I nod my head. It all becomes a blur as he comes around me and pulls me into an embrace. I become numb as I feel his breath on the crook of my neck. “Good. You should be.”)
Overdose
I don’t fit in. I am the ugliest of weeds among all the weeds themselves.
Things that don’t matter and things that do: I manage to mess them up just alike.
I thought this was over; that period in my life took place years ago.
I am not supposed to be the same anymore.
Yet here I am.
The same as I have always been.
Awkward and alone: Unfit and not pretty.
Even when things are supposed to be right they turn out wrong.
I am supposed to have it better, remember?
After all I did, all I have done I am supposed to happy now, isn’t that right?
But I’m not; not in the slightest…not even remotely.
The itch inside my veins is dying to reach the peek.
To burn through my skin and bleed, bleed, bleed.
I want to cut and bleed; to pick at my scabs and laugh.
I hate this, I hate this all.
I am so tired.
Pardon me while I go overdose.
71 year old MAN pregnant
…or so he was told by the hospital. I first found the article this morning on Perez Hilton but you can also find the news article on Yahoo News. When I first read this article I thought it would either turn out to be some sort of joke or a serious case (i.e. pregnant man). It is kind of a mix of both. It happened in Curry General Hospital in Portland, Oreland on Friday September 26. A 71 year old man – a grandfather – went to the hopital due to some abdominal pain and upon his release he was given some pain killers along with his discharge papers. What did his discharge papers say? The line read as follows: “Based on your visit today, we know you are pregnant”.
O.O
I can imagine the reaction he must have went through in that first minute after reading the paper [ - I thought I was a man! - ]. Haha. But in all seriousness how can this happen?! I mean I understand it being a mis-stroke on the keyboard and making a mistake, but the thing that bothers me is the fact admins don’t check the printed document BEFORE giving it to the patient. You read this article and can’t help but start laughing at the stupidness of it all but at the same time you have to think of the possibles this could have had.
Jonas Brothers – Lovebug
Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say
Now I’m speechless
Over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Love bug again
Hopeless head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
With this love bug again
I can’t get your smile out of my mind
I think bout your eyes all the time
Beautiful but you don’t even try
Modesty is just so hard to find
Now I’m speechless
Over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
With this love bug again
Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby can’t you see
Now I’m…
(Guitar solo!)
Yahow!!!
Now I’m speechless!
Over the edge and just breathless!
I never thought that I’d catch this!
Love bug again!
Now I’m hopeless, head over heels in the moment!
I never thought that I’d get hit!
With this love bug again!
Ohh oho
Love bug again
for the boy with a mole
this poem is dedicated to a boy…a very special (and I use that word loosely) boy that if he reads this than he’ll know its for him.
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how can I say this delicately?
the fact is you kind of stink.
not to mention you have buck teeth.
i am sorry to say that there is just no way.
i am not getting you laid.
i know I said I was being delicate.
but this is as nice as it can get..
your feet are big and your back is hairy.
the mole on your cheek is kind of scary.
you’re be offended when I say this.
but you look like the creature from stargate 7.
when you get mad I want you to remember…
through this all I was being delicate.
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I’m just kidding. This poem isn’t about anyone I know haha but this is what happens when I’m bored.